Today hasn't been the easiest day for me. I've tried to avoid looking at my phone since 12am because the big fat "5" on the front only reminds me that today is June 5, 2010. Today we went to see Get Him to the Greek (which I really wish I would've waited to rent it through the Redbox but hindsight is 20/20) but Killers (with Ashton Kutcher and Katherine Heigl) was WAY better! I actually really enjoyed it.
Anyway, back to today...
Then tonight I had the most awful night at work! [I'm a server] People were rude and felt they needed to take out their life's aggressions on me tonight. (Seriously lady, I'm sorry there was too much cabbage in your salad... but I didn't make it. No need to snap at me with "If I wanted this much cabbage I would've ordered cole slaw.")
This isn't what I thought today would be like.
When I got engaged on Valentine's Day 2009, we set a date for June 5, 2010. Today was supposed to be my wedding day.
I look at the word "supposed" and I keep thinking, "Obviously, it wasn't 'supposed' to be my wedding day, or else it would have been." Life does not proceed according to my plan. It's not my timing that matters... it's His. I know that God has a plan for my life and there is a reason I didn't get married today. I look at it today and remember how much hurt and betrayal I felt when everything fell apart - but I am reminding myself that God has a greater plan for me. He knows what he's doing.
And one of these days, it's all going to make sense.